I just remembered that final grades come in tomorrow and I’m kind of dreading looking at them. Lets hope I at least passed the class I needed to graduate or I get to go back in the fall for one more. Just ugh. It kind of sucks because here everyone is graduating and I’m just hoping I passed a class.
I wish a lot of things hasn’t been so shitty this past year and that I could have handled them better, I could have been done last Dec.

I actually went running today because it was pretty goddamn nice out. I didn’t do too bad either, I’m a few minutes off from where I used to be but taking in account how much I’ve been sick, the fact I haven’t run outside in 3 months, plus I walked part of it because my asthma was a bit sucky, I’d say I did pretty damn good. I’m pretty excited to start getting back into shape and have my hot lady body come out. 

Ugh my water heater is broken so I showered at my friends place yester after calling my landlord and it still isn’t fixed. I’m so annoyed right now so I guess I get to shower at the gym today. I also have a fuckload of homework to do this week and I work every single night. I think I’m going to have to drop my women’s studies class because there was way more work than I was planning on and I can’t do that along with my work load in other classes and I have to pass everything or I don’t graduate and ugh. I am just getting so goddamn stressed I can’t even.

On the plus side I did havw a pretty decent weekend with my friends while I wasn’t working. They’re just a great group of people and it’s awesome that I fit in so well and feel so comfortable around everyone.

Ugh, I just watched the episode of HIMYM with Marshall’s dad funeral and just ugh. This week has really kind of hit me with losing people I think.

A guy that was pretty good friend’s with my sister and I was friends with in high school’s fiance died last week, he’s such a great guy and they have a kid together and just got engaged a couple of months ago, she even made a post on facebook about how she was so happy with her life a week before, and watching that that episode.

It just really makes me think about everything and at first I was honestly scared to ever get close to anyone because I was afraid of losing them and going through that kind of pain, but I realize I need to love the people important to me while I can because I don’t know when they’re not going to be there anymore. 

I got rehired as a regular team member at Target and yay. I was kind of worried because I didn’t want to have to look for another job after seasonal was up and yay.

Sleep time! I get to take 3 exams tomorrow and go pick up my car from the auto shop! The only thing that was wrong with it was the battery cables were shit and whoever changed the brakes before I owned it last didn’t change the rotors also, so ugh I’m so glad it wasn’t something major and super expensive again. So much less stress now. 

I feel kind of like an asshole but considering my neighbors dog literally barked from at least 6:20 this morning when I woke up, until just now (8:40 am) when she got home from class and the fact that this happens every single day, every single time she’s not home, I decided to call the police after talking to my landlord about it and have them talk to her.

I feel like since I gave her about a month since I left a note on her door to try to get him to stop barking or at least have the problem get better, that was more than enough time to hear some changes and there wasn’t anything. That and I’m pretty irritated considering it’s finals week and the dog was barking until around 2 last night even. 

Ugh, I’m just so annoyed with the situation and the fact that I finally resorted to getting the police to do something about it really shows how bad it is because it takes a lot to get me to call them.

If I could afford my rent by myself I would literally kick Kyle out. Like I’ve asked him I don’t know how many fucking times to help me with stuff because he lives here too and he doesn’t goddamn do it and just leaves his shit everywhere and doesn’t pick up after himself.

I’m so just sick of it and I’m sick of him and his stupid girlfriend coming over all time because I don’t want to see her for obvious reasons and I do not like her, I can be civil around her obviously but I don’t care to be forced to be around her. I’m so close to screaming and just figuring out some way to pay everything myself because I’m really starting to hate living with him.

Not that I haven’t already been going out and doing new things lately anyways but like I’m actually really amazed at how easily I make new friends, and like pretty decent people too, but I need to do it more. I still totally get anxious about throwing myself into different social situations that I’m not used to but I’m really enjoying that fact that I’m actually meeting a lot of new fun people because I really haven’t let myself do that before, mainly because I would have gotten yelled at for talking to guys/acting dumb/retarded
while I was having fun/etc. I’m just so glad I’m out of the shitty relationship I was in and can actually just be myself now and be happy about it. 

Ughh, this week was pretty shitty because a number of reasons but I’m really excited for the weekend because tomorrow after I take my exam I’m going to gym, as long as my cold is mostly better, then head down to Des Moines and see my sister and niece, then go to the mall to get some pretty hair flowers for my costume, then movie night at Cain’s with a bunch of friends. Then Saturday tailgating with Joanna and it’s Homecoming weekend so it should be extra fun, then after I make myself sober up I’m going to Des Moines again to go bar hopping in costume with Cain and some of his friends and it should be fun seeing tons of people dressed up! Yay fun things to keep me nice and distracted and fun!

Guys, also my tattoo draw-up should be done within the next week or so so that’s pretty exciting! I’m pretty way pumped about it, I think for now I’m only going to get the outline done, then I’ll probably ask for money for Christmas to hopefully get more if not the rest done, then I’m working on getting a job too. So essited. 

Ahhhh, Say Anything was fucking fantastic last night. I’m so way sore and from it and my voice is all scratchy from singing so loudly but it was so great.

I also got to punch some guy because he was being a dick and slamming his body into Selina repeatedly after I yelled at him to watch what he was doing, my elbow hurts though because when he turned around it overextended it mid-punch I think, or something.

Then I also had someone bitch ass bitch throw her drink on me after she tried to shove everyone aside and I told her “uhh uh no” and lightly pushed her away, to which she proceeded to shove even harder so I elbowed her in the face along with 3-4 other people pushing her back. :3 Then someone also accidentally stomped on my foot so my toes are really sore, luckily I wore tennis shoes for once though. 

Sammy gets a little violent when her friends are being treated shittily and her area is encroached at concerts apparently. It was everything I hoped for and more and I got a guitar pick that they used! SO YEAHHH.